
So, about that job interview…
…You know, the one I wrote about in my last post?
…You know, the one with all the gravitas and questions that made me ponder how I do the work?
Well, I was offered the position! And I accepted it!
And I took all the unicorn smarts and BIG IDEAS (!) to someone else’s office,
where I sat at a computer
with all the e-mail,
and all the systems,
and all the passwords,
and all the plans,
and all deadlines,
and all the importance, day after day,
after day,
after, day,
afterday,
afterdayafterdayafterdayafterday
…like any normal person might!
(I really, really wanted “normal person” to work for me in this instance.)
And that went on for 11 weeks until I realized:
No!
and also:
whycoloured worlds of because do not stand against YES which is built by forever & sunsmell
(thank you e.e. Cummings)
…and then I quit.
Nearly everything.
All at once.
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April 20, 2022 at 2:51 pm
stitchedinstone
You are SOOOOO lovable. This just makes me love you more! I’m sorry it didn’t work out, but you’re so much more than “normal person” and I just know you’re going to find something that works for you rather than you for it… or maybe mutually if you have to have a boss involved. Maybe you are your own boss… there’s a lot going on with those unicorns. Maybe everybody wants to support them… to be unicorns and they set up a unicorn shop? Or online unicorns could be a thing. Make your shingle. Hang it!
April 20, 2022 at 2:56 pm
Lunar Euphoria
Gya! Thank you, that’s super, unbelievably nice.
I’ve been feeling like a completely not-at-all-lovable freakin’ hot mess for nearly a month now. [CHOOSE JOY! CHOOSE JOY?! WHERE IS THE FREAKING JOY?? Where’d my damned unicorn run off to?!]
GYA! I’ve had my shingle placed for 10 years now.
April 20, 2022 at 3:00 pm
Lunar Euphoria
(But wait! There’s more!) Shingled, boss lady of myself for a whole decade. And I’m exhausted. I’ve exhausted myself. And with this whole new chapter I’ve lost all confidence in myself. And I’m still free falling and wondering when and where the SPLAT is at.
April 21, 2022 at 1:48 pm
stitchedinstone
Your unicorn ran inside of you not away… outta respect to your ‘normal person’ who had to go a little out of body to act like office work is healthy for humans. I went mad doing office work, got mad doing office work, and after a point NEVER went back to the Madness. Many of my BEST decision(s) in life have been quitting jobs. lol! 😉
so…Don’t be hard on yourself! I love your ‘creative person’ and am grateful for your presence.
April 24, 2022 at 11:08 am
Lunar Euphoria
Thank you for affirming the truth of what my body knew and brain wouldn’t accept: office work is not a functional nor healthy habitat for humans. It was wrong by a million years and rejected by every (non-neurological) cell of my being. Parts of this brain still haven’t entirely caught up yet.
…and trying not to panic as I continue to hold open the void. (Deep breaths!)
April 24, 2022 at 9:53 pm
stitchedinstone
Don’t panic!
That exclamation point seems panicky.
If there’s anything I can do to assist, I’m at the ready! Just say the word.
April 25, 2022 at 12:56 pm
stitchedinstone
U know what? Maybe they are some kind of ginormous limpet? In any case they are sea creatures! The book I peeled them out of doesn’t say. Which is totally Ridunculous! 😉
May 11, 2022 at 6:47 pm
Lunar Euphoria
You are such a sweetheart! And your art is such an inspiration.
I rather like to imagine a world where a lovely garlic of the sea lives!
April 21, 2022 at 10:47 am
Kathy
Big hugs, Lunar. I think it’s wonderful that you listened to what you new and decided to choose a new path/a new job and didn’t want years & years to make that decision. Yay to you!
May 11, 2022 at 6:49 pm
Lunar Euphoria
Tight hug back at you! And that’s a great way to look at it: 11 weeks vs. years and years. (shudder)
April 23, 2022 at 11:43 am
Mr. Z
yes
May 11, 2022 at 6:51 pm
Lunar Euphoria
aye
April 24, 2022 at 11:15 am
Lunar Euphoria
Thanks Kathy.
A path….that would be a nice thing to find maybe…
April 24, 2022 at 11:16 am
Lunar Euphoria
….yep!
May 11, 2022 at 8:02 am
skatturcast
yikes, this post of yours is almost a month old and I’m just now seeing it. It got way buried in my mailbox. You didn’t fail, you tried something new and it wasn’t what you wanted. Nothing fail about it.
May 11, 2022 at 6:53 pm
Lunar Euphoria
For some reason it still feels a little pokey and faily. This too shall pass.