Usually by this point in the New Year I am busily tracking my progress on any number of resolutions which I have typed up and posted in a prominent place in my daily line of vision. One year I decided to quit consuming mass quantities of caffeine. Another year I decided to make a point to smile more.
Quit job, start college.
Exercise at least twice a week.
Travel to another country.
These are the sort of “big picture” directives that have guided my weekly schedules and daily “to-do” lists. At the end of each year, progress on the resolutions would be thoroughly reviewed and summarized in my journal. Through this process of recapitulation I would decide what I wanted to resolve for the coming year. The current year’s resolutions would then be added to the collection from previous years in a file folder, the new resolutions typed up and posted. Last year I even had a theme song: Katy Perry’s Roar. Obnoxious, but true.
This whole recap-resolution ritual has been a staple practice in my life for more years than I can recall and so it is with a sense of disquiet that I have come this far into the new year without having made a single resolution. As of right now there are no grand plans to guide me through this year. When I typed that last sentence all the little people that populate the village of my pscyhe went screaming and running through my head as meteors of the apocalypse rained down on them; that’s how much it pains me. My poor little village people think anarchy will reign surpreme without a theme song and chieftain telling them what to do.
Speaking of anarchy’s reign, I may be perimenopausal according to today’s consensus. That’s probably an overshare, but now that I’ve turned forty and I don’t have resolutions I might as well put it all out there, eh? Oh! Maybe my resolution is: I’m giving up resolutions? No, that’s just way too crazy to even consider.
So, yeah, perimenopause….I’ve been having these episodes of near spontaneous combustion day and night. It’s as if I have held aloft my sword and said,
“By the power of Greyskull!”
~ ~ ~~> >>} >>> BAM <<< {< << ~~ ~ ~
“I have the power!”
I am She-Ra and I am on fire. My body radiates heat and energy. I am solar euphoria flaring – the moon girl becoming the sun. That the body is capable of doing this sort of thing is amazing. And then it all goes away and I’m back to being a cold little moon again.
Hm…what else can I tell you?
El-D went as a “leather-clad vegetarian” on one of our recent outtings. Tonight he went out as a Grizzley’s fan, which is possibly one of his strangest transmutations yet. Who is this man? I have no idea.
I took the Christmas decorations off the tree and made it a Valentine’s Day tree. There are pink monkey’s in repose all over it, courtesy of Nanook the Barbarian. I would show you a picture, but getting up to take one would require more effort than I’m presently willing to expend, so just use your imagination. Maybe when I’m feeling ambitious again I’ll make some resolutions and post a picture. A picture of the tree, I mean. Or maybe pictures of the tree, and resolutions, and hell, why not – maybe a to do list while I’m at it.
While we’re on the topic of to do lists, I went to Crystal Bridges Museum last weekend and there was this artwork that I really need to show you because it totally resonanted with me and because it’s relevant to this post, which means I am gonna have to get up and get a cord to download the picture I took of it, so I might as well take a picture of the tree while I’m at it. Aw, there’s a puppy! …on my phone…I’m scrolling through pictures… and here’s a picture of a pig mask, which is going at the top of this post, just because.
Ok! Without further ado, here’s the picture I took of the artwork that has inspired me to get up:
Ta Da! That was hanging in a museum. It was like someone had drilled a hole in my head and shone a flashlight inside and tried to capture it all.
Here’s my Valentine’s Day tree:
And here’s a puppy:
That’s all for now!
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January 25, 2015 at 8:40 am
skatturcast
Cute puppy! Cute monkey’s on the tree!
Resolutions…booooo…why? As someone that has already gone through menopause, trust me when I say, It’s hard to focus enough to get through daily task, why the hell do I want to worry about a yearly resolution!? LOL Everyday comes with a new resolution/goal we try to complete, that’s challenge enough for me. I think that’s it’s own resolution in itself, just doing better at getting the everyday task done.
How did you like Crystal Bridges Museum? That’s one of the places Wendell and I want to go too.
January 26, 2015 at 7:32 am
Lunar Euphoria
Why resolutions? The structure and self-direction of having them are what help motivate me and help me to know what daily tasks are priority and which aren’t. They’ve helped me stay focused on the “big things” that matter to me (which I usually figure out through the process of recapping) instead of letting myself get lost in the minutia. I like participating in the ritual of resolutions.
This was our second trip to Crystal Bridges. I wanted to see the State of the Art exhibit. It was inspiring!
January 26, 2015 at 12:35 am
Cathy
I have the same resolution each year… simply “To Do Better” … so I’m successful at some “things” and unsuccessful at others.. I find that I have at lease a 50% success rate which is far better than a total fail… which has happened when I actually identify specific resolutions. I never did like a lot of pressure to perform lol. And by the way… perimenapausal …. might want to alert someone around you when you really get crazy… I went crazy on the inside where no one could see my craziness … and didn’t know I was crazy and basically no one else did either (except for the usual crazy). However, I had a stark revelation at the point I began to take hormones…. suddenly my world because peaceful on the inside .. within 12 hours.. i no longer had to get up at night 23 times… hot flashes subsided.. my brain suddenly and without warning… became my friend again 🙂
January 26, 2015 at 7:42 am
Lunar Euphoria
Re: menopause – who knows? It’s a natural part of a woman’s life, not a disease. You know how I am. I might just ride the wave and embrace the crazy.
January 26, 2015 at 12:13 pm
skatturcast
Well if your going to “embrace the crazy” I want to wish you luck with your resolutions that you haven’t even made yet! hmmm wonder why? Maybe your crazies has something to do with it! :p
Yeah, menopause is natural but it can go on for a very long time, your 40 and premenopausal already…you have a long way to go. I was miserable while going through menopause. There are so many hidden symptoms you’ll have and not even realize they are from menopause. I’m off hormones for the second time now and I still have symptoms! It sucks!
January 26, 2015 at 10:36 pm
Lunar Euphoria
Come do yoga. We can be weird and hormonal and embrace the crazy together.
January 27, 2015 at 9:36 pm
Dana
This is my favourite post of yours EVER! I loved the mental image of your inner village people running amok with no annual theme song to keep them placated and peaceful. I set theme words, but a theme song is a damn fine idea. [heading to my music library now to decide on a suitably cheesy but stirring theme song for 2015]
February 17, 2015 at 6:39 pm
Lunar Euphoria
Did you make a stirring, cheesy selection yet?
February 17, 2015 at 8:09 pm
Dana
Yes! I’m going with Gwen Stefani’s “What You Waiting For?”, circa 2004. 🙂 It has a totally different vibe than my annual word (Trust) does, but variety is the spice of life, no? I figure I can be all zen-like with my word and then hyperactive with my anthem. It’s good for balance…
January 27, 2015 at 9:38 pm
Dana
(And yes! It’s favourite enough for me to use my Canadian ‘u’ in the word “favorite”. Normally, for reasons that are compulsive and strange, I adapt my comment spelling to the blog writer’s nationality. In this case, though, I was so excited by this post that my default Canadian learning took the reins.) EXTRANEOUS ‘U’s EVERYWHERE AND FOREVER!
February 17, 2015 at 6:43 pm
Lunar Euphoria
That is so considerate that you adapt your spelling to your audience. I’m so flattered to have disrupted this habit! You can use extraneous ‘U’s here anytime you want.
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